Saturday, October 31, 2009
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Created in a way that I felt different.]
Life is really not just full of surprises, but also people who impacts your life just by saying something that is you, but in another way. I can't really explain what is the main term of being simple-minded, but I keep hearing that about me. If being simple is really not knowing many things of the world, and really just keeping life to a minimum, I guess it's hard to talk to people isn't it?
But as I chat with more people, have more debrief with my ICs, irregardless of whatever ministry it is, I realised that what I have is not what everyone has. What is normal to me is not really normal to others, as my IC, Grace, said :"Impacting."
Through my life, I never thought that I could impact people at all, not even a single bit... Haha, looks like I really grow to love what I have inside me more and more... I wonder how long this simple-mindedness will last, but I will use it to great use before it's gone.
Simple things to me like doing BMI because I really treated it as my house, and that really believes that making this home clean will make people love to stay in it even more. What others' will not do, I will. Another thing is like my reason to join Cafe, is just to see people smile.
I'm not sure what else this heart of mine can do, but it surely has compassion and a very strong conscience inside of it. I can really say that I'm not born to do anything bad at all. My conscience always bug me whenever I do, and I get a strong pinch in my heart that is really painful physically for a few seconds... It even makes me feel weak for a while, and I have to rest for a few minutes. But after becoming a Christian, it doesn't bug me that much already, looks like God wants me to be independent and choose my own actions and consequences in a good way!
"Tests from You shall always be welcomed, and my heart will only grow with it and You." - Alvin
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 2:37:00 AM
