Saturday, September 26, 2009
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A momentum of Faith. --]
Thinking about what Pastor How preached today, it was really impacting me a lot. It reminded me of many times where God prompted me to do or say something, but I did not. A moment that makes someone happy or sad, I always never had faith in those and kept quiet, but when God wants something done, He get someone else! So after someone else said what I had to, I feel a bit sad. Yeah, feeling sad after not having faith, how faithless am I man...
Returned home earlier before event ended, and feels super accomplished! Hey, I served God today! Starting from BMI, to helping Usher, to BMI and to Cafe and back to BMI, I really can't stop loving to serve! Even Lynette asked me how many ministries I have actually! Hahaha actual fact just two for now... Can't look forward to the next one I am going to join...
I was thinking a few minutes ago on the bus, if I am have great faith at the end of everything, I realised that moments of Faith helps a lot, and really a lot. Looks like I not just need to have faith in all that I do, but to also have faith in whatever God tells me to do! Not just to flow with my leaders, but to flow with God! I really hate you devil, all of my faith that you crushed, I'm going to get it all back! You steal, I fight. I drop, then you pick up! Hahaha ~
Starting from the prayer meeting yesterday, I really started to feel God's vision for the church. I realised that out of many things that I can do, I can really get to pray and help bring God's vision to pass! (Even if we have to do it forever since Pastor How said it's not going to end.) I just came to church a year before, looking back at the insecure, no confidence little boy I was before, I really can see the change in me now.
For my next step, I will grow this seed of Faith and let it bloom not with a "pop.", but with a "boom!" During service today, I was actually asking God to hold my hands and help me with this faith thing, but He told me that it's time that I actually proceed fully to the independence stage, and I just simply nodded my head in agreement. (Wonder if anyone saw it, hope not. Haha.)
"All that You want me to do, I do with a Yes." - Alvin.
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 11:41:00 PM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
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Another one of my slacking day. --]
I'm so bored today, tried... And really TRIED to sleep for more than 6 hours, end up looking at the celling for around 2 hours... Yup sounds stupid, but I really have nothing better to do... And when I try to get up, feels like I'm attracted to the bed like a magnet... No wonder people who like to sleep don't really like to get up... Hahaha.
Went to this temple with my Mum just to see my ancestor's grave, and looking at all the people kneeling down, praying... I just know that in some parts I can't compare to them... But to think about it... Most people either pray for good numbers to buy 4D, or just because their loved ones are Buddhists... Well, to say about that, I know that many will not want to be Christians because of the little bit of so call more strict commandments, but well, those little bit of commandments if they don't observe, well, that's sin already.
Usually they just never thought about changing their lives slowly by slowly, but expect either the sudden change in them, or to let things go their way... Just like Pastor said... Many of these people just don't want God to be their Master...
Well, that aside, after coming back home, I realised that BigBen is filling up my facebook wall post with "Notes", so I decided to "Note" him back, and we just started in this little notey war. Haha.
"I can't decide how people be, but I can show people how I am through You. Making You my master, and theirs, that shall be one of the great things I do for You." - Alvin
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 11:03:00 PM
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
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A moment of forgetfulness, or is it? --]
I have been wandering about when and why I have been starting to lose my memory... And I just hope that it doesn't get too bad to handle... I have just started to get good memories... Don't want to lose them so early... Some things I still remember, but some I dont... Roar, I need to play more memory games...
Well, just a thought about it though... I'm not going to waste any time to worry for it... If I can't remember the most I'll just search through my head. I'm too free and too busy to think about it. I'll just leave it to till I'm around 60 plus years old...
"I can forget about yesterday and today, but I will never forget about what You have done in my life." - Alvin
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 4:32:00 PM
