Monday, August 24, 2009
[--
Friendship last forever, even if it just started. --]
Well, like many humans out there, a lot of us will just lose contact with our friends after some time... Even myself, I have lost so many good friends I once had. I don't want that history of losing 100 plus friends ever again...
A friend whom I think is quite close have told me today that he will be backing off for a while... I know that how hard it is to really take that step of faith to go through this hurdle.
Many times I myself have been very tired to even take up that phone to message a friend. Many times I have thought about resting even a day from God.
Many times I have sined and lied, and those feelings took me down.
Nevertheless, I have gone through those pathetic excuses to get away from God. And today I stand here to say that I'm a servant of God, not just a useless creation.
I will never ever leave my friends alone... It's even fun to just message them every once in a while, because many times, friends just lift up your mood. I just enjoy their company around... Like it is literally a shield from many things... Like bad people, bad cultures... Yup. Well, I will be waiting for all my friends to come back to church one day, not to visit, but to come and stay and serve this great God with me!
"You gave them to me, and I will give them back to You." - Alvin
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 12:35:00 AM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
[-- Availability Vs Busy. --]
For this period, many of my friends are busy with tests and projects...
For this period, I'm the one who is helping to see if they need help and help them...
Many of my friends are all studying hard to give their all for God...
I'm serving and giving my all for God with my time...
Many of my friends are not giving up God at all...
I'm not giving God up too...
But in all this... Aren't I the most free... The person with the most time to spend? I know that I'm helping out, but can't I really help MORE? Even my leader, Christian who is busy, remembered that I fell sick and when I saw him in the toilet last week, he asked if I was better... I didn't know that I'm really being cared for so much...
And that is when my question is answered fully, if whether the leaders I trust cared about me. To those who don't believe that our leaders are busy and forgotten about you, you are really wrong. And with this, I'm ever more motivated to help them, loving them, serving God with them! Hahaha, a blog to write down how I feel... Not many reads, but God does. Starting from the draft that I write, He's already looking at it. Pastors too, I know they know me, because during AMT, Pastor How said : "Let me look at you guys, and know some of you." He did not called me to stand or go up the stage even after looking at me or around a few times. That proved something, doesn't it! Hahaha, this post I'm not writing as a blogger, but as a person who appreciate what God done.
"You have not gave up on me no matter how many mistakes I have done, and in return, I will never ever have again the thought of leaving you." - Alvin
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 10:47:00 PM
Monday, August 17, 2009
[--
Time is draining away, so love your friends now. --]
Sometimes I just wonder.... Nightmares... Are they such a bad thing to keep us from thinking about it, or scare us off? I got one this morning, it's really super funny for me...
This dream of two people, both of them are my friends, but 1 I like a lot and they other, not that much. It is really a bit weird that... In the dream, they got together, but it's like I'm the video camera who is following them everywhere. So, everything happened like for 2 hours, from friends to marriage. I do admit that when I'm inside of this dream, it really pains me... No idea why though... Well, in short, the dream is a nightmare that is trying to get me to stop loving one, and hating the other.
But good thing I'm able to get a true meaning from that nightmare, and it became a dream. How to explain? I just have this feeling that what the dream really wants to tell me is to really increase in the mercy of my heart, to love my friends. Hahaha, it's just really turned out to be a joke now that I think about it, but the meaning of it... To love and forgive my friends no matter how some might treat me, and not just that, but to really give your all for them as well.
Hahaha after seeing all these... Don't you think this dream is actually from God, and not the devil? =P
- I can't stop if you want me to hallucinate, but you can't stop me if I want to dream. -
[EDIT] After Liang started asking a lot of crap, please do not ask me any other questions unrelated to the meaning of this post.
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 10:46:00 PM
