Saturday, September 26, 2009
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A momentum of Faith. --]
Thinking about what Pastor How preached today, it was really impacting me a lot. It reminded me of many times where God prompted me to do or say something, but I did not. A moment that makes someone happy or sad, I always never had faith in those and kept quiet, but when God wants something done, He get someone else! So after someone else said what I had to, I feel a bit sad. Yeah, feeling sad after not having faith, how faithless am I man...
Returned home earlier before event ended, and feels super accomplished! Hey, I served God today! Starting from BMI, to helping Usher, to BMI and to Cafe and back to BMI, I really can't stop loving to serve! Even Lynette asked me how many ministries I have actually! Hahaha actual fact just two for now... Can't look forward to the next one I am going to join...
I was thinking a few minutes ago on the bus, if I am have great faith at the end of everything, I realised that moments of Faith helps a lot, and really a lot. Looks like I not just need to have faith in all that I do, but to also have faith in whatever God tells me to do! Not just to flow with my leaders, but to flow with God! I really hate you devil, all of my faith that you crushed, I'm going to get it all back! You steal, I fight. I drop, then you pick up! Hahaha ~
Starting from the prayer meeting yesterday, I really started to feel God's vision for the church. I realised that out of many things that I can do, I can really get to pray and help bring God's vision to pass! (Even if we have to do it forever since Pastor How said it's not going to end.) I just came to church a year before, looking back at the insecure, no confidence little boy I was before, I really can see the change in me now.
For my next step, I will grow this seed of Faith and let it bloom not with a "pop.", but with a "boom!" During service today, I was actually asking God to hold my hands and help me with this faith thing, but He told me that it's time that I actually proceed fully to the independence stage, and I just simply nodded my head in agreement. (Wonder if anyone saw it, hope not. Haha.)
"All that You want me to do, I do with a Yes." - Alvin.
I will serve You as long as I have breath. 11:41:00 PM
